心痛.....

心痛

无人知

说了

只会让人担心

那时

走平路也痛

走楼梯也痛

斜坡更痛

连睡觉都痛

心真的越来越弱了

能承受的

也越来越少了

也为有照顾好身体了

还好现在好多了

不然真的不知怎样了

busy week

Too busy till I have no time to update my blog.

Last 2 weeks was too busy. Last Tuesday had a dinner with my junior. Actually is more like second year senior gathering lo. Didn’t talk with my junior also. Think next time should talk with them if have chance la. Just knew that one of my junior (a guy) is from Taiping. Quite fun also having the gathering cos last time cant go due to the quiz.

Then went to UPSI for the math competition on saturday. For me, the questions were too easy. But I forget how to do( cos before that night, I just study 4 pages of LSK notes). So in the end, cincai do it. Never do a test so relax before. Haha. I just went there to have a look at UPSI nia.

Then Monday night had math interaction night. Never tot that I already in second year. Last year interaction night still fresh in my mind. Just went there and chat with my frenz. I didn’t had my direct junior le. Kinda sad also cos ‘没有下一代’ le. ( actually I also donwan direct junior. Haha ) my super super senior all also very keng one. All also got 3.7 above. Now just left me as ‘最后一代’ lo. Kinda stress also.

The last part of the interaction night was too funny. The KC’s pole dancing (kononnya). He made a mistake on the Sudoku game and didn’t even say sorry to us! ( cos he incharge of the game part) As a punishment, the committee asked him to dance. But his ‘pole dancing’ 够力的恶心. Really wanna vomit when he gave the ‘fly kiss’. Really will had a nightmare when think of him.

Here goes the sad thing. Wednesday, an unhappy day for me. PS, she joined the UTAR math competition. Actually start from the moment she asked cy about this competition, I already think that ‘没了, she wan join’. Which actually comes to true. She really FLY go to the lab to register. Very hate la. Made me no mood at all during the class. Then at night, when me, cy and cf took photo infront of the USM logo (sg2 there), she purposely donwan my face inside the pic wo! She just took the 2 of them nia! WALAO EE! When cy told me that there is no me inside the pic, I tot she was just kidding. Manatau is truth wo… PS didn’t mentioned anything after she took the pic and she just returned back cy’s handphone nia. So STUPID! OK FINE! Just like wat cf say, me and PS 火药味很重. Don care le. Donwan asked her why my face not inside the pic le. I had no energy to ask her. Just waste my tongue only. She is just NOTHING to me.

I HATE THEM!!!!!

Recently there were so many people that I hate so much. Firstly all my math n econ lecturer(exp Mr Andrew) were so suck. All oso donno hw 2 teach 1. So mostly go cls juz crap with cf nia. The 285 lagi suck. He talked so soft and when asking him question, he oso donwan 2 answered us. Hate la.

That day I went 2 cy’s room juz 2 settle our problem. Is about final year project partner. Last sem I had asked her 2 became my partner. Then something happened. Is was during the sem break holidays cy suddenly sms me n told me 2 reconsidered my decision 2 choose cf as my partner. I felt so weird. Y cy suddenly asked me like that. Is not I donwan 2 be partner with cf but juz last time I quite close wit cy ma. Hope cf wil und la. I oso planning 2 tell cy that v can split if v wan juz tak sangka she told me during the holidays. Then v discussed about it n decided 2 split. Here is the conversation.

Ml: if we really wanna split, who do u wan to be partner with?

Cy: may be is lr. Bcos ps so close with ey.

Ml: ps will certainly come ask u to be partner with her.

I was so curious y cy send me tat sms during holidays. So I decided 2 asked her. I guess it right! It really was ps who asked cy to partner with her during the holidays. I jus know her so well.

Then on the other day, I was on9 halfway in cy’s room, ps came n asked me about the partner thing. She asked me who do I wan to partner with and I said at 1^st is cy n nw may be is cf. Then I purposely asked her back. She answered me may be is cy and told me 2 settled our problem 1^st. then I asked her y not partner with lr since they so close n were roommate. Again she answered me not same course. I alr knew she wan partner wit cy long time ago jus I wanted 2 test her. Hmmp, I have been thinking wat is it feel like if ps n cf are partner or me n ps are partner. A ‘very good’ combination lol. Surely wil 火星撞地球. Hope me n cf wont like this la.

Tat wed night, I told cf about wat happened with me during the 1^st sem. Alr 1 whole year d n she still wanna hear the grandmom story wo. Ok lo. Then use the whole period 2 talked about it n she was kinda shocked. N forget to add on 1 thing. PS really like 2 pasang telinga 1 lo. Tat’s why I din tell her much about any1 o anything that happened around. So just becareful la ha.

PS complained 2 me about her SHE and said that her group member were not cooperate and Mr W as her group leader asked her 2 do all the things. After hearing she said that, I was act berpihak with Mr W lo(though Mr W got wrong oso la). Act Mr W is a responsible person la jus he’s too busy with his stuff nia. Nw only she know that doing all the things by herself is a very difficult thing. I will never forgive her what she did in last year. All the econ, science politics, and bm project made me hate her so much! I will never forget what we told each other. I knew I was bad to say that “if can, I donwan to be same group with you anymore when doing the project”. But sadly I jus broke my promise. Is econ again same group with her! I think we will quarrel again and again. N wat she said 2 me was indeep hurt me so bad.

“ if I have any information I also don’t want to share with you or tell you.”

“ I just wanna let you to suffer and do it all by yourself.”

I will never ever forget what she said to me, esp these 2 sentences!

A KekSim Week

5/7

Today woke up in the early morning to pack my things again for the last minutes. Just left a little bit more things only. Pack for almost 1 hour and then we went to Penang. Reached USM and took my room key. When we wanted to go to my new room, a guard said that my dad can’t go in cos this is a girl hostel. I was like WTH! I had so many things le. So, my mum, my sis and I had to carry all my things. It was so heavy man! My new room is far from the lift and it was SUCKKKK! Firstly, the floor was very rough. Then the door was stuck half way. And it was full of dust!! MY GOD!!!! Then the 3 of us cleaned it but the floor still can’t clean well. Stupid floor.. Made me sweat and tired. After that, we wait for my 2^nd sis came and we went to kimgary to had our lunch. Then my roommate sms me and asked me to help her take her key. So we headed back to USM. There were so many people and my sis keep 吹 me. Haiz. Being scold by her liao. Then we went to her new rent hse which was located in Jelutong.

6/7&7/7

Woke up in the morning for these 2days and it was SUCK!!! The class were cancel without told by anyone. Wasting my time woke up in the morning! The lecturer din came oso din inform us. So suck.. APEX uni la! Mensiahshuaikan only! Becos of all these stupid timetable and lecturer, always made me not enuf sleep. Everyday oso go 游花园and then came back to hostel! Say about my room oso very keksim ah. My room TOTALLY CANT ON9!! But chai yun and pei sang’s room(which were just opposite my room) can on9 wo. So stupid! So I terpaksa went to their room to on9. Sometimes already ‘fat mo’ in my room cos really damn sien la.

8/7

Today had my SHE meeting with my supervisor. She was a vice dean. B4 this, I already inform the other group members that we met at math sch pondok at 4.30pm cos our meeting is 4.45pm. 4.30pm I already reached there and din saw anyone oso. Ok lo. So I wait til 4.40pm. Still nobody. I sms 1 of my group member and he said he’s on the way. He 4.55pm only appear. I just scared that our supervisor will scold us cos donno she strict anot ma. Luckily she really nice lo. So just the 2 of us go in find her nia. Then a few minutes later, the other 2 member showed up. Now just left another 1 member only. And sincerely, I already expect that he wont show up cos I already knew that he was irresponsible ppl. The lecturer kept asking where was he and we just said that we already inform him. Very keksim had this kind of group member. I wanna find him out and scold him but he always ponteng class. So I didn’t even can meet him. Now being a group leader I had so many things to fan liao esp him! If next meeting he din come again, I really donno how 2 explain to my lecturer.

9/7

Starting from the day that I come, my neighbor always 吵醒me and my roommate. She every morning cough in the toilet and her cough was very geli 1! Really beh tahan with her ah! Just pity my roommate nia cos she cant sleep liao after hearing her cough. I think she gonna cough for the whole sem. HELP!!!!